What Gives?

I wanted to be a part
Only barriers blocked me

First I'm teased and scorned
Then I'm the guilty one
All the kindness I give
Receives nothing but pain

I wanted to just be me
Only that wasn't shown

First I said the wrong thing
Then I just shouldn't talk
All the respect I show
Receives nothing but hate

I lost all of myself caring
Only to find no one cared