Missing

Slowly it starts
I'm here and now I'm not
In or out, here or there
Does it matter?
No, not really

You say you care
So why am I not there?
Instead I'm over here
Left by myself?
Yes, really there

Words I convey
But always they do stray
Missing someone that hears
I don't matter?
That's what is real

Emotions come
I push them far away
Why do I need them here?
They don't matter
No one listens

It was a fight
Now there is no reason
Things are what they are now
Always losing
Never winning